Struggle Inside Dying Wish

I've been building walls around me
Through which you'll never see
What hides inside this lonely man
Who was born to live for eternity.

I've been wearing a mask to hide
All my feelings fighting inside.
I never let anyone too close
Cause I feared the pain would be gross.

I've had enough, I want to change
Even if it sounds too strange
I want to get out this rusty cage.
You cannot change till "I" say so.
But I will never let you go.

This fearful voice rulesover me.
Now through the walls I cannot see.
I am a slave to the Evil's will
But I think I've already paid my bill.

I'll pull up now and be strong
I know all my life I have been wrong.
It is high time to get things straight
I have no more time to wait.

Life has been a desperate struggle.
The difference from Hell would be subtle.
Concealing what you should show
Makes the sorrow inside you grow.
Brick by brick I'll pull down the walls
And I don't care if the Evil's calls.
Brick by brick I'm getting stronger
I'm no one's slave any longer.

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